Safety

So hard to let go

Everything up to this point was to impress you

To make you the proud father

When I ran out of reasons to go on

You were my reason to keep going

You instilled in me the the need

to live in a harsh world

but you are gone now

and my life is full of emptiness

yet somehow it is safer than my reality

losing you could bring chaos

so I can never let go

let us keep our connection open as always

as you smile down upon me

Solo

A son looks to his father

and he sees the man

he is striving to become

but when a man looks to his father

and only sees a memory

he strives to remember every detail

One

One tries to ignore inability to empathize

One time is all it takes

One more time is all it will take

One finally sees opportunity for happiness

One life could be too late

One judgement makes the call

One decision hangs on the scales

One answer raises more questions

One hand is free to wave

One believes in miracles

One believes in nothing

One Son given for an eternity

Morning Comes Calling

If you are conscious

at the fiery dawn

stay seven feet away

from satans spawn

If you could fend off spirits

using a stick

I suggest a rose bush

and a thorny switch

with striped legs

and starry eyes

do not be fooled

by false disguise

keep your head

out of the clouds

keep your feet grounded

so growth is allowed

Falling

I miss the outside,

and I long for autumn.

There is something about

rain on cool days

that makes me feel at home;

otherwise I seem lost.

On hot days, I sit around

wondering what to do.

I end up thinking of

beads of water on windows

or a coat to protect me

from the cold.

I wonder how I will hold out

until next fall;

like many things

I wonder about.

It is difficult to find a solution,

and with this fear

that embraces me,

there are no analogies,

but useless apologies

leave my mouth every minute.

Outline

I refrain myself from knowing,

and signal to Heavens disclosure.

The rage is administered

over what seems miniscule.

In summary, there is only closure

for toting idealogy.

Being aware of all things

is a restless endowment

of education.

Feign noises that mean nothing

relay unknown messages.

The measuring of tactics

is spacious when an

introduction is needed,

and the body of work

has been distributed.

Sources are counted

and accomplishments are weighed.

Sphere

Restless again on a hollow night

full moonlight and twice as bright

awaiting dreams away from sin

awaiting nightmares again and again

A soul will bask in light of day

it smells of flowers in a corny way

the dust collects on pictures and frames

times forgotten but never the names

so much to ponder as I go on

the night feels warm and a summer long

continue to mesh or fall apart

halt the dash to a broken heart

it seems time begins and ends

in a place where all descends

in my face where defeat last

I struggle with the past

Sulk

No expression

on an outlined face

defeat troubles the mind

and willingness to fight

fades within tears

hope is for another day

that rings in victory

in simplistic voyage

away from confusion

every one every day

can adapt it seems

and so many

laugh at the weak

rather than being courteous

when the power of prayer

leaves chapped lips

you feel the need

to pray for yourself

more than need be

Follower of Christ

I will not, can not

follow your lead

I follow the Redeemer

with the peace given by Him

by the joy that lights my path

so much can be seen through Him

more than I knew possible

yet I crave more sight

and blind faith as well

by His grace I can see myself

my name has been written: Chris

to whom it matters most

this is all that matters

because no life

should last an eternity

surrounded by dust and bones

looking for the lost

Thanks for reading!

Take care and God bless!

Chris