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This site has stories, ideas, and opinions from a Paranoid Schizophrenic point of view…

  • Describe a phase in life that was difficult to say goodbye to. When I was diagnosed with Paranoid Schizophrenia at the age of 36 and went on disability. I miss working to this day, but when you have had more jobs than you can count because of the inability to have a working relationship with Read more

  • Return

    It has been a weird holiday season to say the least. With everything going on in the world it feels less and less like Christmas every year that passes; it is unfortunate, but the world is simply headed in the direction the Bible said it would. The Bible’s prophesies are unraveling before our very eyes. Read more

  • Dig

    So, I think I will just stop going out in public except for church; I mean I go out and try to meet people and they find out I don’t work and decide they don’t like me because of that. Is that judgmental on their part? You darn right. What other proof do you need Read more

  • No Composition

    Well here I sit writing for the first time in quite a while. How does the time change affect you? For me, it makes the day seem longer; like a lot longer; however, it also makes me feel tired and bored. Even though it is 7:33pm it feels like 9:44pm. This is a busy time Read more

  • Next To Last

    ◦ I am sitting in a pew toward the back of the sanctuary on the left side of the church, and I am about to burn up. The stained glass windows are lit up, and they are shining bright and beautiful from the sun lighting up the morning sky. I am so weary I just Read more

  • Gods Child In Me

    ◦ Once when I was a kid, I got a big wheel but it was not just any big wheel; it was a Green Machine. If you are around my age you know what I am talking about. I received it as a birthday present from my parents. The Green Machine was a bright green Read more

  • Lucid Appeal

    I am sitting in bed at 11:14pm; I can see a light across the street which illuminates off the shiny, wet road, and I can see shadows surrounding the area. I do not know why, but I feel at peace seeing the light in the darkness through the blinds; it gives me a sense of Read more

  • Too Little Too Much

    Lately I have found myself reflecting back on my life, and it is for one reason and one reason only: it is time to reevaluate my past to see where I went wrong. Perhaps at 52 years of age, that is a tall order; maybe even impossible. Sometimes I wonder if strangers got in my Read more

  • Crystal

    If you know me, have you ever wondered how I ended up with someone younger and totally out of my league? Well, I will tell you: God gave me everything my heart desired, and it was not that I was looking for someone younger; however, that is the way it happened. Before I met Crystal Read more

  • Not So Funny

    Ever feel like the world is against you? It is like no matter what I do to try to make my life right even with help from the Lord, all the odds are against me. Even new or old friends seem to be against me; I believe there is only a couple of friends praying Read more