I am sitting in bed at 11:14pm; I can see a light across the street which illuminates off the shiny, wet road, and I can see shadows surrounding the area. I do not know why, but I feel at peace seeing the light in the darkness through the blinds; it gives me a sense of calm.

I would say it is nice to take my mind off things by sitting here. The truth is I have been updating my website to keep it fresh. I love writing in this blog, and I would not do it if not for those of you who read it, so thank you from the bottom of my heart!

Now, if you do not enjoy reading it, then by all means you do not have to; it is no skin off my nose. I will keep writing as long as the words are flowing.

I remember being so bold when I was a child, and even then I made some mistakes; however I am not beating myself up because I tried. I was a mean kid until I got saved at seven years of age but I was still tested and failed a few times.

Eventually I got a handle on life; my brothers and me were not bad kids by any stretch of the imagination. I had a good time growing up with them. I was the baby of the family so a lot of times I got away with a lot.

I have jumped ramps on my bicycle, I have had the breath knocked out of me numerous times, I have accidentally set my hand on fire, I have had a firecracker explode on my neck, and the list goes on. I am sure anyone my age can relate to some of the things I experienced as a kid.

I am fortunate enough to have fond memories when I was growing up. I am so grateful to my family and to God for keeping me safe. I love living even though it can be stressful at times living with a mental illness. I can walk down the isle at church, and if I hear people laughing I automatically think they are laughing at me, but whether they are or not I choose to ignore it. It can still add stress though

Okay, I am getting sleepy, so I think I will make like a tree and leave. Goodnight!

Take care and God bless!

Chris