Well here I sit writing for the first time in quite a while. How does the time change affect you? For me, it makes the day seem longer; like a lot longer; however, it also makes me feel tired and bored. Even though it is 7:33pm it feels like 9:44pm.

This is a busy time of year for Crystal, so this must be why I feel why I am bored. Of course it does not take much for me to become bored; I miss Crystal as she is my soul mate, but I know her staying busy is important for her and for others.

Also, there has been a new development, as I will no longer be singing on the worship team at church. I feel as if there are a couple of members on the team who do not like me; albeit, that is their problem and not mine anymore. This is not the reason I am stepping away, though I do not work well with those who do not like me when I have done nothing to them.

I am stepping away because it is the best thing to do; I do not think God wants me to be in a bad situation, but truthfully I wanted to stop singing a long time ago. I stepped in because the worship team leader, who is a friend of mine and Crystals, asked me to. I believe they sound great without me, and I can worship fine out there with the congregation and when I put on my headphones at home.

Anyway, life is full of tough decisions, but I know I have made the right one because I feel free. I have been getting up in front of people and performing for most of my life, and I am exhausted!

I love writing here behind the scenes on my phone or on my computer; it is therapeutic and invigorating, and I only wish I could do it more!

I hope I didn’t bore you to death with this post; far be it from me that you go to heaven sooner rather than later, assuming you want to live as long as possible. Honestly, the way the world is going I am not too far from being ready to fly.

Take care and God bless

Chris

#singingforJesus