So, I think I will just stop going out in public except for church; I mean I go out and try to meet people and they find out I don’t work and decide they don’t like me because of that. Is that judgmental on their part? You darn right. What other proof do you need other than the words on this screen or the words coming out of my mouth. Perhaps you would feel better if you could talk to the three UNC doctors who diagnosed me. Well, that is not going to happen, so I guess this is not happening. The worst thing about this is, it drives a wedge between mine and Crystal’s time together. I do not want to be a hermit, but what else can I do? The majority of people I know are acquaintances and that is all they want to be.

Crystal, I want to apologize to you; had it not been for me, some of your family would treat you like an actual sister, and they would deem you successful. Like a lot of people, some of Crystal’s family hates my guts, and I know had she married a young, rich executive she would get the attention she so deserves from them. I cannot even support your ministry without making everyone question your faith. I only wish they see it is me and not you.

All in all, I feel pretty good about things. Crystal knew what she would be giving up when she married me. Does that make me love her even more? You bet. I wish I could explain just how awesome Crystal is, but the fact that she could have any guy she wanted, yet she chose me says it all; she is just a real special person, and it takes a special person to put up with my crap.

Take care and God bless!

Chris